Holidays, major life events, and birthdays always cause me to reflect on where I am today and where I was a year or several years ago.
Especially birthdays, (cue birthday music, dancing, and laughter!)
The great thing about getting older is that you don’t lose all the other ages you’ve been – Madeleine L’Engle
This time last year Emily and I were in a very different place. As everyone is every year of their lives (or so they hope to be).
I was still in school about to graduate, we had just put in our application for the Peace Corps in hope to make an impact in the world, and our lives didn’t seem to have a whole lot of certainty.
Today, graduation has come and gone, the Peace corps didn’t work out, and we still have so much uncertainty in our futures. As I continue growing and maturing I’m beginning to think that’s pretty normal.
No one really has their life under control and with a large amount of certainty. We can plan and plan and in the end sometimes they work out, while other times things happen that are just beyond our realm of control.
In reality there is only one thing any of us truly have control over and it’s ourselves.
We can choose how we think, what our actions will be, who we love, what we believe in, and even how we feel.
Over the past year a lot of things happened that were truly out of my control, but I’m again realizing that although most things are out of control in my life, the choices I make for myself based on these outcomes are mine alone.
We didn’t get into the Peace Corps, after much prayer, good thoughts, and encouragement. However, I’ve come to a place to be grateful for the deeper bonding experiences I’ve had with Emily.
I’ve graduated and am not in a job I want to be in, nor do I care for, but I have the ability to walk into work everyday and choose to do my best and be grateful for my paycheck.
I’ve also decided to take advantage of my time and impact outside of work because my life doesn’t revolve around my job (although most of my time is spent there, whomp whomp). This is why I’ve decided to start Project To Restore, become more earth conscious, and try to inform my friends and family the importance of their environmental choices.
I’m coming to realize the power in my words and actions.
Birthdays are always a time when I look back over the year and think about the things I’ve grown in, learned, and still need to know more about.
I hope my thoughts have inspired you because you truly are powerful. There is no one else on the planet who can impact it the way you do.